At first, I may seem quiet but once you get to know the real me, I’m actually quite the opposite and my friends know that about me. During my elementary years, if my classmates would describe me with one word, it would be quiet. I was so quiet that I only had a few friends. It was the kind of friendship that had an expiration date on it. Each year, I’d be with a new group of friends and it was tough for me to really open up. It was only during high school when I met my “friends forever and ever” that I showed my true talkative self.
So what’s the point of this entry that I had to go back to memory lane? Well, since the year had started, I’ve been asked by my friends for a couple of times and on different occassions why I’ve been quiet. My reasons are: I have nothing good/interesting to say or I guess I just don’t want to say anything I’d regret later on. I don’t wanna sing John Mayer’s “My Stupid Mouth” anymore because I’ve sang it far too many times before that I’ve reached my limit.
I am the air. Though you may only feel me sometimes, I am always surrounding you. You breathe me in and you exhale me out but you don’t see me.
I am the moon. Amidst the darkness, I am your guiding light. I shine the brightest but you’d rather look at the stars.
I don’t like to make plans because I don’t want to let people down when I can’t make it to the plan I initiated.
I don’t like to expect because I don’t like feeling disappointed.
I don’t like promises bacause I don’t like having false hopes.
I don’t want to get my hopes up because I don’t like the feeling of crashing down and there’s no one to catch me.
Sit beside me
when I seem alone.
Talk to me
when I seem quiet.
Make me laugh
when I seem sad.
Hold my hand
when I seem to drift away.
when I seem cold.
when I seem to be having a bad dream.
Finally, after 3 years of contemplating, I get to write again. I am still unsure as to what I’ll be posting about nonetheless I am excited. Let the writing, storytelling, ranting and raving commence! 🙂