A thought suddenly came to me, “It’s just not meant to be.” When nothing seemed to be working out for me and just when I was about to give up, a miracle happened. I had hope and all the stress that built up in me was lifted. It was as if God was playing an awful trick on me. In the end, I guess I just needed to believe and have a little more patience.
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Today, we buried my father. I should be sad but I feel nothing. Maybe the fact that he’s dead hasn’t sunk in yet. Or it could be the fact that I don’t really know my father. The words “When you don’t feel anything, it just means that you don’t care anymore.” came to mind. Maybe that’s it.
During the wake, I felt like a celebrity. I mean I didn’t know anyone there but they knew who I was. Even though I’d ask who they were and they’d say their name, I would still have a lot of questions for them like how are they related to my dad? how did you know who I was? have we met before?
What do I know about my dad? My siblings would say that he was a strict disciplinarian. He cheated on my mom with someone she knew. My mom kicked him out of the house and that was when I was about 2 years old. He would visit during birthdays or Christmas to give cards with a 500-peso bill tucked inside the the envelope and sometimes he would bring along the 2 kids he had with his mistress. He was a taxi driver but before that he worked in an office but I’m not sure exactly what he did. As he got older, he got sick and he got worse. From diabetes to stroke. They said he even had Alzheimer’s disease which explains the time we visited him and he couldn’t recognize us or it could just be because he had a stroke so his memory was affected and they could just be exaggerating. Now that he’s with Him, he wouldn’t have to suffer anymore. He has paid his dues.
Salamat, Papa. Di ako mabubuhay sa mundong ito kung di dahil sayo.
Flashback to May. I joined an online contest wherein the prize is a 2-night stay at one of the hotels by Stay Far East Hospitality in Singapore. I didn’t get my hopes up since it was too good to be true. Then, a month later, I received an e-mail stating that I won! After confirming the prize, I decided to use it on my birthday since the voucher was good until September 19, 2013. Booked a ticket for my mom, sister and myself then reserved a room at the Village Court Albert Hotel. After few months, it was already my birthday and we were on our way to Singapore.
It was a lucky day for me because Lee Seung Gi was also arriving at Changi Airport. I only found out when I saw this at the arrival hall and when I asked some of his fans who were eagerly waiting for him. They were very nice because they answered all my questions. To those fans whom I met at the airport, thank you very much. 🙂
I waited for an hour just to get a glimpse of him and it was worth it.
My visit to Singapore wouldn’t be complete without eating at Din Tai Fung.
The best xiao long bao (steamed pork dumplings) I’ve ever had.
I was disappointed to hear that the AFC Studio had closed down 3 days before my arrival.
I didn’t have a cake on my birthday but I did have a pint of Ben & Jerry’s Chocolate Therapy. ❤
It was a short but fulfilling trip. I will be coming back again someday to one of the places I love to visit.
I am now 26 years old! I don’t know if every good thing that has happened to me right now is a blessing or just luck, nonetheless, I am thankful.
Just when you think your day is gonna end with a bang, it goes BOOM!!!
When I left home, it’s as if there’s a bowling tournament going on in the skies but I didn’t mind. I was happy and excited to attend a school gig. My series of unfortunate events started after my mom dropped me off at the train station. I bought the wrong ticket but I just went along with it.
When I arrived near the school, it was raining cats and dogs plus a lot of heart-stopping thunder and lightning. It’s a good thing that I always bring an umbrella with me whenever I leave the house. However, the strong winds made it worse because I still got wet. When I arrived at the school grounds, it was already flooded and still rising. I had to walk through one-foot deep waters to reach the building. My limited edition one-year old shoes which I bought in Hong Kong was ruined. I was cursing from the moment I entered the school grounds until I reached the building where the auditorium was located.
I arrived looking like a mess. It was useless to wash my feet with alcohol so imagine how I felt the entire time I was there. I took a seat at the back of the auditorium to dry myself. I tried to forget what I went through and just enjoyed the show. Being with my friends made me feel a little better. One of them even offered his extra shirt when he noticed the one I was wearing was wet and I also got a free meal. But the best part of the night was seeing them perform and I was standing amongst the crowd. Their manager noticed the screaming fan girls who ran past us as the band was starting to perform and she asked me if I was like that before. When I became a fan and started going to their gigs, I honestly don’t remember acting crazy like that. I guess it’s because I’ve known them for a long time and we became close friends that I’ve gotten used to them. But no matter how many gigs I’ve been to, each time I see them perform on stage, I remember how I felt when I first saw them. Starstruck and amazed.
After the show, they told us that everyone present in the auditorium were the only ones in the school grounds. Because of the heavy rains and deep floods, we were stranded. I thought we were gonna stay there with the students until morning but thankfully it was only a couple of hours. We just had to wait for the water to recede a bit to get the car out of the school grounds. There were three of us in the car and I could sense that we were all holding our breaths as the car was driving through the flooded road. There was even a moment of applause after we passed. It was an exhausting but memorable night that I never want to experience again.
I am now half a century old. Gosh.
Remember in high school, when the guidance counselor, homeroom teacher or even just amongst your friends, you’d ask yourselves “where do you see yourself 10 years from now?” Well, let me tell you that my answer back then is so far from the reality I am in right now.
But never mind that cause it’s all in the past. What matters is the present and I am thankful for each day that I am given. In my opinion, a birthday celebration is bittersweet. We may say goodbye to our youth but yesterday is kept in our memories. Every year, we make a wish, may it be material things or something abstract, still we remain hopeful for the years ahead.
This is me trying to sound wiser since I’ve aged a year older. Actually, I don’t even know if this makes any sense. Hopefully, you’ve been enlightened by this post. 🙂
When I was a kid, my sister would play her tapes and I’d have to endure listening to her kind of music such as Grin Department and Parokya ni Edgar. Don’t get me wrong cause I have heard of Eraserheads, The Dawn, Wolfgang and many other bands during that time but I was more into boy bands such as Backstreet Boys and N’sync since it was the popular kind of music to my generation.
It was only in High School when I came to appreciate the OPM (Original Pilipino Music) band scene and it’s all because of my teachers’ influence, specifically the “Faculty Banned.” Based on the name, they are composed of faculty members from the English, Social Studies and Filipino department of our high school. If they weren’t teaching, they probably would have been in a band. They would perform original and cover songs during school events such as the annual fair.
I remember during Filipino class, when we were discussing a chapter in Noli Me Tangere, my teacher had the class listen to the song Burnout by Sugarfree in connection to the love story between Chrisostomo Ibarra and Maria Clara. In another lesson, he used a song by Moonstar88. My Filipino teacher was the drummer for the Faculty Banned and keyboardist for the Liturgical Choir. He started teaching at our school when I was in 3rd year and it was the same time that the Faculty Banned was formed. He was our class advisor so we’d support them whenever they’d hit the stage. We also had a band formed within our class and they were named “Short Notice.”
Years have passed and I’ve become such a musicphile because I listen to music everyday and it’s an important part of my life. I may not have any musical talent in my genes but I love music. If I were to lose all my senses except for one, then I’d rather retain my hearing. I’ve also met a lot of people from the music industry and I never imagined myself to have famous musician friends who have adoring fans screaming their name and asking for autographs. I was… or rather, I still am and forever will be a fan. It’s how I started before I became friends with them.
Anyway, this entry is getting too long and I don’t know how to end it because I feel like there is so much more to say. So before I forget, I just wanted to say that I am thankful to my teachers who taught me to appreciate and love OPM. We have a rich pool of talented musicians in our country that needs our support. I suggest going to gigs and listen to live music. It’s a must-have experience on your bucket list. 🙂